I have been so ashamed of myself recently (and still am).
I scrimmed alongside some of CAS members and have shown horrific results.
I let them down numerous times, couldn't aim right, teamflashed, did begginer's mistakes, couldn'd concentrate and had >0.5sec reflex speeds (of usual 0.24-0.33sec). I decided to do something about it.
Since participating in more of team matches proves to be impossible because of it's rarity or participating in team practice because of it's nonexistence whatsowever, I subscribed to ESEA, so I could pug my ass off, seeing it as the only place where I can practice for teamplay.
So, untill I stop being nervous, panicking and minding what teammates think of me, I will stay there.
I will become better and improve my playstyle, correct my mistakes and learn as much as I can, show some consistency in playing and plenty of confidency.
And I hope, one day, I will be able to play alongsite CAS members as equal.
Untill then, I will gladly participate in any practice or scrim CAS may have, but keep in mind I may still not be ready and will play as a noobster bait.
Love you all!
Sincerely yours,
Kano.
